FAQ

Crissy is no longer associated with any adult websites. The porn industry is a BUSINESS. Crissy signed "model releases" for every adult shoot that allows the copyright owners to use, sell, or reuse photos and videos on other sites. Crissy has no control over what happens with these adult websites. Crissy worked a job and was paid for it, which is why she tries to emphasize this when she speaks. She wants people to realize the reality of getting into porn. The photos and videos never go away.

Crissy was never in it for the money, however, the money was something that did keep her trapped because she grew accustomed to a certain way of life. Crissy was heavily convicted when she left the industry, and she felt responsible to take a stand for what she believed. Crissy believed accepting money from people who were still "buying her" was wrong. She wanted to be bold and show other women the porn business is not their friend. After men and women are done, the porn business will continue to profit off you. It was time for change, and accepting money from her adult site would only keep her bound. Crissy was done exploiting herself.

Most people can think about their pasts and can easily hide it...never sharing it with anyone for the rest of their lives. The evidence and consequences of my past mistakes will never go away. I have to deal with this daily, and it isn't easy. I find happiness in using my past to help others who might be going down a similar path. I am thankful that everything meant for evil can now be used for good. If something I say can help another person, then I'll continue sharing my story.

I want to be as clear as I can when answering this so be sure to read my response in it's entirety. The first thing I want to say is that every story IS NOT the same. Second, the porn industry isn't the only thing that ruined my life. I was already heading down the wrong road at a very fast pace. I came from a broken family, sexual abuse, relationship/love addiction, depression/anxiety and the list goes on. Going into porn, for me, was a progression. It was not something I set out to do, but rather, it was something that found me when I didn't care about my life anymore. From that dark place came more darkness. Porn gave me a false sense of love and control and although I didn't get into it for the money, I did get stuck in a financial trap that I saw no way out of. I believe my circumstances and life events groomed me for porn, however, I alone accept responsibility for my decision to get into porn.

There were big things and small things. For me, it was a huge life change. I was immediately stripped of the only identity that had ever given me a sense of self. I was left without an external facade to figure out who I really was. I left the boyfriend, walked away from the car, stopped accepting the money and was not able to care for myself the way I had grown accustomed to. I was no longer able to pay for things like hair extensions, botox/fillers, tan, clothes, nails, gym membership etc. I could barely even pay for food. I dealt with PTSD, and I was forced to look at myself in the mirror. I didn't recognize the girl looking back at me. I didn't know her. I believe healing is holistic and, only when I became truly vulnerable, could those broken places begin healing. I went to therapy twice a week, participated in support groups, attended church as much as possible, read books, read my Bible, regularly met with a mentor, and many other things, to get through my recovery. I had a lot to learn, and un-learn, about love, relationships, friendships, family, and forgiveness. Ultimately though, I was fully committed to do whatever it took to heal.

I choose to define myself by what I am for (not against). I am for women. I am for them realizing and understanding they are loved, valued, purposed. I am for them living their full potential.

Yes, I used drugs most of the time I was in the industry. I have used cocaine, pills, ecstasy, marijuana, and meth, but I never used while on set. I used to self-medicate. Thankfully, I did not become an addict. It is very common for women to use or drink on set just to get through the scenes. I learned at an early age how to mentally "check out." I disassociated the same way I did when I dealt with sexual abuse or physical abuse.

By God's grace, there has been a tremendous amount of healing in my family. I talk to my family regularly. They are fully supportive of me, and are proud of who I have become.

Playboy Magazine contacted us and asked how, after so many years of not being in the adult industry, both the sex industry and Christians favorably receive Crissy's unique story.